Very Recently Widowed
I am 74. My husband's death is very recent, the 8th April, after a long eight and a half year fight with cancer (myeloma). Our daughter lives with us and has cared for us both as I have mobility problems. The years that my husband had cancer were hard for all of us, made even harder by covid as my husband became very afraid of going out and catching something as the constant chemo made his immunity low. We grew even closer, but I in particular came to feel very isolated. We hardly ever saw anybody else.
I am obviously very new to the grieving process. I know it is going to be hard and take a long time. My main concern is the fact I cannot get out unless my daughter pushes me in my wheelchair. Although I am a very quiet person and have never made friends easily, I just feel the need to be out in the big wide world again as soon as I feel stronger!
To make matters worse, for the past year our son has been living with us most of the time. He developed big problems with anxiety and depression following the break-up of his marriage and tried to kill himself three times last year. Now, it has become very clear that he is an alcoholic and he is waiting for possible help with that. The problem is, he is incredibly hard to live with, barely talks to us, complains constantly about the cramped conditions in our small house and (rather strangely) does not seem upset at the loss of his dad or sympathetic to the pain that both my daughter and I are going through.
That is just a brief introduction to me and my current woes!