Support & Healing

I lost my wife in December after nearly a year of being ill. We were together for 30 years, 27 married. At first I was a complete mess. I depended on family and friends to get me through. In addition I moved out of state and dealing with financial issues. I'm doing better now but each week or so I'm experiencing new feelings and thoughts. I'm nervous because I don't know what comes next. Confusing emotions and feelings I didn't expect some difficult to share and some causing guilt. Sometimes I don't know if I should act on or bury the emotions. I just needed to share with people who understand what I'm going through.Thand you for listening.

Hi. I lost my beloved husband to a massive heart attack while we were on holiday in Portugal. He’d just gone to have a shower before us going out for dinner with friends. I heard a crash and called out to him but he didn’t answer. I rushed into the bathroom to find him dead with his head on the mixer taps. I never realised people could just die like that. I rang a friend as I didn’t know what emergency number to ring but they wouldn’t talk to her as she wasn’t with us. That was nearly two years ago. I think about Chris on waking every morning and constantly throughout the day. I thought I was coping pretty well with the grief but following a friends funeral in February I’ve been very tearful and I’m pretty sure it’s not her death that’s causing it but a delayed reaction…

Hi everyone,

I lost my wife of 39 years passed away 5 weeks ago from Parkinsons, I was her sole caretaker and watched this terrible disease eat her up before my eyes. She passed away in a Hospice House on a resbit stay. Seems like i`m in limbo but also seem to be managing pretty good as I have not broke down the first time (nor do I feel like I need to), I guess from me watching her deminish more and more over the past 3 years (worst being the last year) think I might have already done my grieving and crying while she was still alive at home bed ridden, I would go into another room while she was sleeping and wouldnt disturb her and cry. Am I wrong for not breaking down and wanting to move on with my life? Do NOT want to start dating but…

It's 8 weeks since my husband died aged just 62. He had gone to hospital at the end of September with suspected appendicitis but came out with stage 4 metatastic bowel cancer. 13 short weeks later he was dead. No real symptoms, just some tiredness, but the primary had apparently probably been growing for several years.

I collected his ashes last Thursday and have been an emotional wreck ever since - that was a reality check and a half. I can't stop crying and feel so overwhelmed and panicked. I don't recognise myself. Friends keep reaching out to see if I want to meet up or go for a walk, but the thought of being with others fills me with such dread and fear, I go into an absolute tailspin. I'm usually so independent but am beginning to wonder if that was because I always knew he was there, i…