Just how much bad luck can a person endure?
Dear all,
Apologies but I need to vent, because after 6 years I've come to the end of the line...
I'm 53 years old and based near Bournemouth. I lost my wife Laura to Cancer in 2020 when she was just 45. One week after the funeral the UK went into the first lockdown, a few months later I lost my job due to the pandemic. And then a short time after that I had to move out of our marital home.
As time has progressed over the years my friends and family have stopped calling. I've made over 2300 job applications in six years but am still out of work. My CV has been professionally overhauled 4 times and even made AI compliant... but still no employment!
The days are long, the night's longer. And I'm lonely. SO SO lonely. I've tried dating apps and did see someone for…
David, this post made me incredibly sad to read. I’ve just recently lost my husband and I feel lost and like I need help but from who I don’t know.
I read your Wordpress piece on your late wife and it really resonated with my experience. My late husband had a shorter battle with cancer but went through many similar experiences. I hated the out of ours calls to A&E and the endless medicine that filled the house l, but now I can’t bring myself to throw it away. I miss going to the hospital because it meant that we were together. I have my job and a wonderful family so in that respect I’m lucky but as you say, the nights are so lonely and not having someone to love is tough. I put my heart and soul into making my husband happy and forgot how to look after myself.
All you can do it keep going, that’s what Laura would have wanted for you and it sounds like you’re a very talented man. Sending you strength - you are not alone.